Cogito ergo Sum - I Believe therefore i am

Flashes

2004-12-30T06:56:00.000-08:00

hey..
tmw will be the last day of the year...its cliche but still...it feels like 2003 was juz yesterday...

lets do a recap

jan
one thing i remembered most was that i didnt go to skul for like ...e first 3 days? didnt feel like it...ahaz..i think i did pretty gd for the gp paper...my fave paper.nuthinmuch in this month i guess..loads of slackin

feb
the period i remembered most was the total defence day celebrations. i got to wear my army camouflage uniform for the 1st time in skul...hahaha..a lotta eyes were on me..me and my ego. not that i needed the attention but hey...it was good.went ard in army uniform giving out valentine's day chocs to gurls...haha..was a way to get back at someone for ignoring me.not suprisingly,she was clingy to me after skul ended..wonder why...too bad i'm trained and do not act mushy in uniform.aint appropiate ehz?

mar
auditions for speech and drama club started..i got a minor role..but that too awas scrapped and i settled for a stage crew part.oooh..i think i was the emcee for the 1st MI students council investiture.lolz...i sure messed that up..oh wellz...i had fun..was told i look "suave,had poise" and was said to be "charasmatic" on stage..hahaha..oooh..met up with suhaila on that day;fun.

apr
this month was a blur...dunno y..wait,i think i blew my temper in skul for the first time in my life.like major. was playin footie in skul when i found out my ex hooked up with someone knew.woah..major blow up. at the toilet...i banged the toilet roll holder to bits...hahah..silly..dear leanna was there to put me back to pieces..tho i was smiling soon afta.developed a theory-dun gv a fuck to others even when it pains me to not do so. good 'un.

may
was syf drama grading this month? wad e hell. we got gold.thanks to the brilliant performances of jun,colin,leanna,matt n shafie.and the crew.we rocked.

june
the month of studying...which i didnt do...at all...dunno wat i did this month. wait, i was the platoon commander for alpha 4, alpha company,Central Spec Course Phase 1 2004.the platoon rocked.great teamwerk,co ordination n talents.the best bunch of cadets i lead,ever.i have to thank sclt fazli n the msgt whose name slipped my mind.he's from anderson.he went for 48th i think.i remembered that during this camp, i met up with leanna to compose myself.despite the fact i was performing well at a platoon commander,couldnt sleep at nite.i was losing my mind.it was bcoz i was detoxing myself of reena n it was too much.leanna helped me.loads.thanks darl.

july
*blur*

aug
oooh...me,wan,rajiv,mat,suhuf,saz and the rest of the class recorded a war video.wooohoo! standing ovation afta the video screening drg ntl concert! hahah!!
national day rehersals.i wore the no.5 uniform for the march in.hot balls...my burfdae too.thanks to those who made my day a blast. n yeah...met someone drg this mth..hmm..m16 movie?oooh ya,jun wont 2nd place for PESA! i was there! hahah!! wait, she won the best actress for the whole of syf drama judging.hahah.was so dang happy for her!

sep
*blur*

oct
*blur

nov
*blur* wait...did u noe u can tell time by lookin at e moon? *winkz* hmm...esplanade rooftop garden

dec
wat can i say...nothin much.

today, jun dropped by at my werkplace. was so happy to see her..i was gettin really bored and all that...she was a fresh change.she,her grin,her sense of humour n erm..her malay?gotta werk tmw..n the day afta..n then someone's gonna watch the 2nd leg of the Tiger Cup at the national stadium.we'll see...n yeah, the singapore football team were very good despite the roughhouse tactics employed the the myanmar team.losers.period.

i miss skul,my frenz,softball. i lost a fren this year.he passed away.made me realise how fragile life is.i nearly got knocked down by lorries,bikes and cars a couple of times this year myself.lots of deaths this year.tragic and silly ones.

thank you to those who made a difference in my life this year. => happy holidays.

"Look around you. Get to know those ard you a lil better. Smile. You'll nv know what a diff you may make in their day,if not,their lives."

tc ya'll
fard

yeap

2004-12-26T07:02:00.000-08:00

yeah,

time to update.

werk.Werk is tiring balls...ahaha...werkin at Orchard Towers.Jasons Supermarket...and i'm not in ANY WAY involved in the flesh trade which the towers is world renowned for. check it urself. 6 days a week,mostly from 1200 hrs to 2200 hrs.look me up if ya'll are ard e area. e place is beside palais renaissance,beside the royal thai embassy, beside lido.easy to find kiddos.ok job la...quite shiong at time.have to stack produck onto shelf space on the shelvings n entertain customer queries. lots of rich brats.annonyin at timebut they're nice...most of the times.colleagues are ok...lots of backstabbin ...haha..irritates me but screw it i say. oooh...thai transvestites hang out thtere to solicitise..haha..got my butt caressed by one of.."him"?...hahah..they're pretty...from far ya?

life..life is ok for now...need da cash..cant sponge off my family ehz...20 yrs old already boy...

handphone.oooh...nokia 7560 n the k500i are in my crosshairs..cants decide...nokia?think so..so all those who are buggin me for my hp no...afta jan ya? then can i get hold of one.

friendz.i miss those close to me.leanna,amai.jun,soffie...crap..my workin hours so clashes with u ppl's schdules.but, i'm still ard for ya all ya?...to amai,i'll be there when australia comes. maybe,when he returns,i'll mite nd ya there..i dunno.things may turn out that way. *crosses fingers*

my boo.hey gal...nothin much to say here..ahakz,we dun believe in proclaiming our thots,feelings to e werld ya.so kaypohz out there..use ur blain.stay out.

tc ya'll

woot

2004-12-08T01:13:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey

i've been away for a loong time..haha..didnt have the resources to update la..so chill yeah?

okok...im spoken for now.the who wat when how stuff..no need la...thoses who know, know k? lolz..

cant really say nothin much now cuz i'm runnin out of time, gotta pick my boo up frm werk ya now...anyway, i miss those in skul, the fun, the crappy luffter and miss showerin all of ya with my "love"..wahahah! =P

till then

Sputter

2004-11-08T18:19:00.000-08:00

last day today...seeya..tc

game

2004-11-07T19:38:00.000-08:00

most people panic when they find themselves not being able to comprehend a situation..i hope this song clears the air..

RONAN KEATING
"When You Say Nothing At All"

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
They can never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

[Repeat chorus twice]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

[Repeat chorus]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

au revoir?

2004-11-07T19:26:00.000-08:00

pain

for all thats happened,
i think everyone deserves a second chance...some a third..some a fourth..
but all these may lead to more pains.

i like pain,its reminds u ur still alive ...n...have feelings.
but hey,
some pains will numb you.
i hope,it wont numb me..from you.

you'll never walk alone..

2004-11-03T19:22:00.000-08:00

i'm told that my blog entries are abstract..cheem..deep
its all because i do not want to be direct.
i do not wish to hurt feelings.
i do not like the whole werld to know bout my life.
most importantly, i tell someone my problems directly.

cringe..

2004-11-01T18:09:00.000-08:00

heya..
people ask me why i can remain composed under difficult situations.some get surprised by how i do so.

i dun always have an issue that i want to share with others.i'll do it if its necessary or if i'm left with no choice. why? it cuz i only open up when its the right time.

i dun go turn to anione.i have to be sure that person is able to help me.its common if people trust me with a high level of degree.

most of all,i hate to be snubbed by the person whom i turn to.

fard

exhaust

2004-10-31T16:45:00.000-08:00

First they ignore you,

Then they laugh at you,

Then they hurt you,

Then you win.

Gandhi

u say?

2004-10-28T17:06:00.000-07:00

The future depends on what we do in the present.

Gandhi

xerox

2004-10-28T01:18:00.000-07:00

i want a shoulder to lean on.
i want a quiet place to calm my thoughts.
i want a the quiet place warm and cosy.
i want... now.

then again, a need and a want.
it's two very different things.

e facial muscles workout they call smiling

2004-10-27T18:21:00.000-07:00

It takes courage to smile in the face of adversity. Some say it's foolish. What say you?

Bloopers

2004-10-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

Be extremely subtle,to the point of formlessness.

Be extremely mysterious, to the point of soundlessness.

thereby you can be the director of the opponent's fate.

.....sun tzu

When the character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends.

There is no greater injury to one's character than

practicing virtue with ulterior motivation.

hey

2004-10-24T22:27:00.000-07:00

Sanctity

Sanctuary

Need

Want

gawd..

2004-10-22T22:35:00.000-07:00

gawd..its a saturday and i'm in skul ironing out the kinks in my groups Written Report...gah...

Skid Mark

2004-10-21T17:13:00.000-07:00

This project werk is currently e bane of my existence.
Why i've been down everyday,not blowing up,is to not let my group down.
7 teachers reviewing my written report.
7 different perspectives.
And there's only 1 Fadhil and 1 Mi 005.

My patience is being stretched.
Skul..dearest skul.

TRAP

2004-10-21T01:42:00.000-07:00

Eagle Eye Cherry
Save Tonight

Go on and close the curtains
cause all we need is candle light
You and me and a bottle of wine
going to hold you tonight

Well we know I'm going away
and how I wish, I wish it weren't so
So take this wine and drink with me
let's delay our misery

Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

There's a log on the fire
and it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire
to take me away it's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye
darling please don't start to cry

Cause girl you know I've got to go,
oh Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow
I'll be gone
Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I, that I could stay
Girl you know I've got to go,
oh Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone

tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight

Treads..

2004-10-20T22:54:00.000-07:00

...i love this song.it's a thumpin song
P.O.D
Boom
-

(haha)I never knew that a kid like me
Could take his mic around the world and flash the big S.D.
And rock the masses, from Madrid to Calabassas
Tijuana, Mexico, bootleg demos in Tokyo

They know me though, 'cause I be puttin' in work
Commit my life to rebirth, well respected,
'cause that's my word I'm sure you heard (heard),
about a new sound going around

She might have left my hood, but she was born in my town
You didn't know, thought we was new on the scene
Well, it's alright!
It's alright!

I know you know, I see you smiling at me
Well, it's alright!
It's alright!

Boom!
Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, here comes the boys from the South
Boom! Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, How you like me now?

I said
We rep. the South, so what you talking about
I'm not running off my mouth,
I know this without a doubt
'Cause if you know these streets, then these streets know you

When it's time to handle business, then you know what to do (what to do)
Me and my crew, we stay true, old skool or new
Many were called, but the chosen are few (were a few)
We rise to the top, what you want?

Just in case you forgot
Rush the stage, grab my mic, show me what you got
You didn't know, thought we was new on the scene
Well, it's alright!
It's alright!
I know you know, I see you smiling at me
Well, it's alright!
It's alright!

Boom!
Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, here comes the boys from the South Boom!
Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, How you like me now?

I said
Boom!
Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, here comes the boys from the South
Boom!
Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, How you like me now?

Is that all you got?
I'll take your best shot.(6x)
I'll take your best shot.(2x)
is that all you got
Well, it's alright!
It's alright!I'll take your best shot.
is that all you got

Well, it's alright! It's alright!
I'll take your best shot.
is that all you got
I'll take your best shot.

Well, it's alright! It's alright!
I'll take your best shot.
I'll take your best shot.is that all you got
I'll take your best shot.

Well, it's alright!
It's alright!
I'll take your best shot.
I'll take your best shot.

Boom!
Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, here comes the boys from the South

Boom!
Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, (haha)How you like me now?

Boom! Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, here comes the boys from the South
Boom! Here comes the Boom!
Ready or not, haha
How you like me now?

Rapier

2004-10-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

heya
its kinda pressurizin when u have one toopid project werk of a monkey on ur back.especially when u are responsible for the 3000 word written report that is 500 words too long.crap.but no worries.it'll be ok. if i can come up with a 3000 word report within an hour, takin 500 away will be a breeze..

next week, the whole week is dedicated to oral presentation preparations.pheew...plus malay ao stuffs to do.and yeah, results...

oooya..tonite's singapore idol which i do have to say is gettin very boring..nuthin much exciting in it.

i juz realised someting.i realised that all my close friends hv one thing in common- they are stubborn..or in other words, strong willed or determined or such other werds. lolz. come to think of it, i'm stubborn too.

"it's good if you can control others,
But its greater if you can master yourself"
tc y'all

face mask

2004-10-19T19:44:00.000-07:00

Whenever words cant describe how one feels, songs come in to take its place.

Away

2004-10-18T21:42:00.000-07:00

Chantal Kreviasuk
Leaving On A Jet Plane

I'm ...
I'm ...

All my bags are packed,
I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin',
it's early morn
The taxi's waitin',
he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I'm ...
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

But I'm leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)

(Leaving) On a jet plane

Wham

2004-10-18T19:54:00.000-07:00

sorry for what has happened

Afterburner

2004-10-18T17:45:00.000-07:00

FIVE FOR FIGHTING LYRICS
Superman

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed

But won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away
Away from me
It's all right
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me.

MANPADS

2004-10-18T17:23:00.000-07:00

HOOBASTANK LYRICS
"Crawling In The Dark"

I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take

And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes

To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for

Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me

In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

ASTROS

2004-10-17T22:06:00.000-07:00

Maroon 5
She will be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times
but somehow I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn?t matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Who Dares Wins

2004-10-17T21:44:00.000-07:00

heya,
as u go along in life, u'd figured that u've seen it all or done it all.maybe its true..maybe.but as you get older,we experience more things..

We might not really notice those around us.once in a while we do. do we stop to smile at them or even ask them how ey are doin and all that?in an age where infomation is easily dug up..and maybe used against ya.most of us clam up.juz to hide behind that veil of security.

Insecurity is paralysing.do u feel insecure if u have a partner who's very sociable and hv good links with the opposite sex?do u get all jealous and get really irritable over that fact?What if you are told and am well aware that of all the gals or guys he or she close to, in the end, he'll turn to you and you alone.of all the gals or guys..he or she only has eyes for ya?your partner only feels for ya.how then?

this is my take on this.i dun think i shd get insecure or jealous.being close to the opposite sex is norm.of all the gals i may seem close to,being friendly and nice or having close female friends,i'd turn to my gal in the end.most of my ex-gfs have been awfully insecure bout this.i wont stop being myself.i think the ultimate gift of being in a serious relationship is the fact that you know and have someone to turn to when you are in need.it goes both ways.of all,i turn to only one. so far, i've been having relationships..sort of.hehz.

We may have a common standing,but it wont be the same.Views differ,juz like fingerprints.no two are alikie.My view wont be shared by many,thats for sure.most think otherwise.to not be close to others and stick to only one.i wont shut u up.its ur opinion.i respect ur view.i dun need anyone to respect mine as i'm not shoving it anyone's face.

In the end, i'll turn to only one.

There'll only be one.

21 gun salute

2004-10-17T18:42:00.000-07:00

this is an extract from junaini's blog on..
Tuesday, October 12, 2004

paying homage to the deserving ones.
i would like to take this opportunity to thank the boys of 03B1 (fad-bugger of all buggers, arif, suhuf, rajiv, irwan, sean, mingda and if I missed out on anyone I apologize) for not only giving me a 'memorable' birthday present but also for dousing me with cold water under the hot sun.
all together now,THANK YOU.

i was e mastermind...haha...my class rocks~

2004-10-14T20:45:00.000-07:00

once i shot someone
i missed.
i shot again,missed
my ego juz got pricked.

once i shot someone,
i missed.
i shot again,i missed again
my ego you ask me?
what ego?

once i shot someone,
i hit him.
not once but twenty times.
ego?full of it.
like they like to say,
every dog has its day.

lolz..most of ya probably are going like
"what the hell is he talkin abt?"

lolz,its my torrid skills at the live firing range and my "taiko" skill at the electronic range, IMT.

tc ya'll

De Oppresso

2004-10-14T20:37:00.000-07:00

PUDDLE OF MUDD LYRICS

"Blurry"

Everything's so blurry

and everyone's so fake

and everybody's empty

and everything is so messed up

pre-occupied without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone

you could be my scene

you know that i'll protect you

from all of the obscene

I wonder what you're doing

imagine where you are

there's oceans in between us

but that's not very far

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it in my face

this pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing

there's noone left that's real

to make up your own ending

and let me know just how you feel

cause I am lost without you

I cannot live at al

lmy whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone

you could be my scene

you know that i will save you

from all of the unclean

I wonder what you're doing

I wonder where you are

There's oceans in between us

but that's not very far

[Chorus]

Nobody told me what you thought

nobody told me what to say

everyone showed you where to turn

told you when to runawaynobody told you where to hide

nobody told you what to say

everyone showed you where to turn

showed you when to runaway

[Chorus]

This pain you gave to me

You take it al

lYou take it all away...This pain you gave to me

You take it all away

This pain you gave to me

Take it all away

This pain you gave to me

g force

2004-10-11T18:13:00.000-07:00

BARENAKED LADIES

"It's All Been Done"

I met you before the fall of Rome
And I begged you to let me take you home
You were wrong, I was right
You said goodbye, I said goodnight

It's all been done
It's all been done
It's all been done before

I knew you before the west was won
And I heard you say the past
was much more fun
You go your way, I go mine
But I'll see you next time

It's all been done
It's all been done
It's all been done before

And if I put my fingers here, and if I say
"I love you, dear"
And if I play the same three chords,
Will you just yawn and say

It's all been done
It's all been done
It's all been done before

Alone and bored on a thirtieth-century night
Will I see you on The Price Is Right?
Will I cry? Will I smile?
As you run down the aisle?

It's all been done
It's all been done
It's all been done before

tyres

2004-10-11T17:49:00.000-07:00

...heya..
was on the bus afta my paper yest..sittin at a comfy seat takin in the scenes..a conversation was struck up btwn two teachers..presumably from yuying secondary.crappy stuff.made me realise, after wat the PM of singapore said recently..teachers still expect students to be saints..and guai idiots..

apparently theres this gal who dresses diff(read;short skirts) and has bad hair (read;dyed hair).She plays around,disrupts classes,rude to teachers,very loud and draws naked figures for art.these teachers went on bithchin bout the whole crappy situation they're facing.
theys think that this gurl is simply a troublemaker and make their life difficult.on and on,thruout the whole ride they were oaning bout their miserable experience with that girl.

here's the fact, frm my own point of view.its not that she's a bad student.stop thinking in black and white,and from a right and wrong,stiff,totally not flexible mindset. open ur eyes,ears and minds will ya?all those signs are showing very obvious signs of an attention seeker who most probably did not have the attention she wants at home.stupid cock!she dyes her hair? looks great right? tell her bout it! obviously she's lookin for ur attention dearest teachers.she's rude to you? y not u find a way to approach the situation.maybe dun think thatas teachers,u r so high and mighty,too big to even be a flexible individual.bout the naked figures, i pose ya this, can u ,the teachers,actualli do one better thatn her? sorry, stick figures dont count.

here u are having teachers who wont look from her point of view at all.listen.n u shall understand.u have a girl who wants to seek attention and approval from her peers and teachers. here u have society wantin us,students to be more capable and do more adult thingys.but when crap happens as a result of tryin to follow u guys,u blame us.and not shoulder any of the responsibility. the faster we grow up, the more shit we give.

nonsense shit.

Stubble..

2004-10-10T17:36:00.000-07:00

STAIND LYRICS

"It's Been A While"

And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I first saw you

And it's been awhile

Since I could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been awhile

Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile

Since I can say that I wasn't addicted

And it's been awhile

Since I can say I love myself as well

And it's been awhile

Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do

And it's been awhile

But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile

Since I could look at myself straight

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry

And it's been awhile

Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face

And it's been awhile

But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father

He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry

Rock and Roll

2004-10-07T20:34:00.000-07:00

Chuck Berry
Johnny B Goode

Deep down Louisiana close to New Orleans
Way back up in the woods among the evergreens
There stood a log cabin made of earth and wood
Where lived a country boy named Johnny B. Goode
Who never ever learned to read or write so well
But he could play the guitar just like a ringing a bell

Go go
Go Johnny goGo
Go Johnny goGo
Go Johnny goGo
Go Johnny goGo
Johnny B. Goode

He used to carry his guitar in a gunny sack
Go sit beneath the tree by the railroad track
Oh, the engineerswould see him sitting in the shade
Strumming with the rhythm that the drivers made
People passing by they would stop and say
Oh my that little country boy could play

Go go
Go Johnny goGo
Go Johnny goGo
Go Johnny goGo
Go Johnny goGo
Johnny B. Goode

His mother told him
"Someday you will be a man,And you will be the leader of a big old band.
Many people coming from miles around
To hear you play your music when the sun go down
Maybe someday your name will be in lights
Saying Johnny B. Goode tonight."

Go go
Go Johnny goGo go
go Johnny goGo go
go Johnny goGo go
go Johnny goGo
Johnny B. Goode

Ceasefire !

2004-10-07T20:21:00.000-07:00

heya
..went ard e outskirts of town on weds..wait..nearly got lost IN a building...u c, my tour guide is a walkin bus directory as well as road directory...but..ermm...put her in a confined space...oops..she's lost wanderin..hahah..lolz..have to admit she at least helped me loads on my mission objective. => ...btw...she LUUUURRRVVVVEEEESS PINK kahrer..hehehe

mats n minahz,bengs n lians at the library irritate me.bug me.piss me off.for cryin out loud pls..read somethin in the library!! not make a fool of urself acting tech savvy on the computers or using the library as ur rendevous point~! geez..how are people supposed to study. u idiots are there on weekdays n gosh! u aint there on weekends. wonder y...gahz.....

anyway, thats a smart thing to do..based on their mentality la that is...argh..

have received lots of comments bout blogging in spanish..hahaha..

anyway..good luck to all of ya for your exams,promos, a levels, o levels and haha..psle..

tc ya'll

Si?

2004-10-05T19:49:00.000-07:00

Richie Valens
La Bamba

Para bailar la bamba
Para bailar la bamba

Se necesita una poca de gracia
Una poca de gracia para me para ti
Arriba y arriba
Y arriba y arriba por ti sere
Por ti sere Por ti sere
Yo no soy marinero
Yo no soy marinero
Soy capitan
Soy capitan
Soy capitan

Bam ba bamba
Bam ba bamba
Bam ba bamba

Para bailar la bamba
Para bailar la bamba,
se necesita una poca de gracia
Una poca de gracia para mi para ti Arriba, arriba
Rrrrrr ha ha

Para bailar la bamba
Para bailar la bamba
Se necesita una poca de gracia
Una poca de gracia para mi para ti

Arriba y arriba Y arriba ya arriba,
por ti sere Por ti sere Por ti sere

Bam ba bamba
Bam ba bamba
Bam ba bamba

Dry Socks

2004-10-04T23:14:00.000-07:00

Watch me sock em in da face.

Star Wars Programme

2004-10-04T23:07:00.000-07:00

Robbie William
Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been told
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around
Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

Knee Guards

2004-10-04T22:47:00.000-07:00

It is not the size of the dog that matters in a fight.

Instead,it is the size of the fight in the dog.

Most of us coccoon and barricade ourselves from hurt and pain.

Despite all effort or the lack of it,

a soft underbelly exists.

If we get hit there,

we might juz break down.

Muzzle Velocity

2004-10-03T23:07:00.000-07:00

Weezer
Hash Pipe

I can't help my feelings, I'll go out of my mind
These players come to get me 'cause they'd like my behind
I can't love my business if I can't get a trick
Down on Santa Monica where tricks are for kids

Oh, come on and kick me
Oh, come on and kick me
Come on and kick me
You've got your problems
I've got my ass wide
You've got your big G's
I've got my hash pipe

I can't help my boogies they get out of control
I know that you don't care but I want you to know
The knee-stocking flavor is a favorite treat
Of men that don't bother with the taste of a teat

Oh, come on and kick me
Oh, come on and kick me
Come on and kick me
You've got your problems
I've got my ass wide
You've got your big G's
I've got my hash pipe
I've got my hash pipe

Oh, come on and kick me
Oh, come on and kick me
Come on and kick me
You've got your problems
I've got my ass wide You've got your big G's
I've got my hash pipe
I've got my hash pipe
I've got my hash pipe
I've got my hash pipe

Smooth Bore

2004-10-01T22:25:00.000-07:00

this is a great song.

VERTICAL HORIZON

"Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)"

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Bionix

2004-10-01T18:28:00.000-07:00

a need

a want

a need =- ( P ) (nd)n.
A condition or situation in which something is required or wanted
Something required or wanted; a requisite
Necessity; obligation: There is no need for you to go.
A condition of poverty or misfortune
v. need·ed, need·ing, needs v. aux.
To be under the necessity of or the obligation to
To have need of; require: To be in need or want.
To be necessary.

a want =- ( P ) (wnt, wônt)v. want·ed, want·ing, wants v. tr.

To desire greatly; wish for:
To desire (someone to do something):To request the presence or assistance of: You are wanted by your office.
To seek with intent to capture
To have an inclination towardInformal. To be obliged (to do something): You want to be careful on the ice.
To be without; lack
To be in need of; require.

its gonna be stressful for the next couple of days.i'll hold on.those closer wld know well enuf.those really in e know would noe wats goin on.

an interesting question was posed to me on the first day of the week and was posed to me again on the last of the weekdays. a need and a want. what if u need but you dun need somethin or someone? what if instead,u want somethin or someone but you do not need it?

how do ya actuali see and interpret this easy enough is up to ya.think about it, when you apply these question upon diff scenarios like eg, if u take maths or physics in skul,u dun need a calculator all the time but you would want to have it with ya during the days wen u have those lessons.another thing to think abt is regarding exercise.All of us have to excercise. Most of us do not want to and we dont exercise sometimes,but all of us jolly well noes we need to exercise.

a simple and innocent qn enuf .but it got me thinking and putting it in diff perspectives.

to each,his or her own.

i'd respect and listen out ur opinion even tho you may not do the same to me.

it takes effort to do lots of things.caring and being a friend is one.pls do not take a friend for granted.
tc ya'll

Flachette Rounds

2004-09-30T22:16:00.000-07:00

heya.
i'm a fan of this show, "Major Dad" that is on channel i every weekday.kinda fun cuz it plays out the funny and uncomfortable situations that people in uniform find themselves in.really enjoyed the episode on mon on tues where e protagonist went thru an emotional ride to finally get her promotion.lolz..cool. been there a couple of times..

promos in one week..whoa..

ps. congrats to the gurl who polishes her teeth who did very well for her prelims =>

tc ya'll

Submersible.

2004-09-29T18:59:00.000-07:00

Vertical Horizon
You're a God

I've got to be honest
I think you know
I'm covered in lies and that's okay
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say

Never again, no
No never again

Chorus
'Cause you're a God
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a GodAnd I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things
I ought to know by now
It's under the table so
I need something more to show somehow

Never again no
No never again

You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
that you would know
You're a Godand I am not
and I just thought
I'd let you go

I've got to be honest
I think you knowI
'm covered in lies and that's okay
There's somewhere beyond this I know
I hope I can find the words to say

Never again no
No never again

You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
That you would know
You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
I'd let you go

You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
That you would know
You're a Godand I am not
and I just thought
I'd let you go

Tactical Retreat

2004-09-28T19:41:00.000-07:00

the songs one listen,often shows what one is about..so yeah..

and thanks to you for doin me a favour yesterday yeah?

Goo Goo Dolls

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

'Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

CS Gas

2004-09-27T01:35:00.000-07:00

"Happiness is often a derived thing.

Most feel happy over somethin or somebody.

Can we achieve happiness from..nothin?"

"Can anyone make you happy is you dont want to?"

"Love,is all aspects is intangible,

so if someone loves ya,

how could you possibly account for what love feels inside?"

Mat Jokes

2004-09-26T23:13:00.000-07:00

What The Fish (Contributed by MJ)

One day, Ahmad and Ramli decided to go fishing in the sea.

They needed a boat, but did not have one so they decided to rent a fishing boat.

When they went out to sea, they tried one spot first, but had no luck catching fish. So they decided to try another spot but to no avail. They sailed to a number of different spots and as luck would have it, they finally found one spot where they managed to catch fish after fish.

So Ahmad told Ramli that they should come back tomorrow to fish again, and asked him to somehow mark the spot or try to remember where they were so that they would have a lot of fish to catch.

Ramli said that he would take care of it and they both returned home, satisfied with the day's catch and eager for the next day to come.

The next morning, as they were on their way to the boat rental shop, Ahmad asked Ali, "So, do you know the spot where got a lot of fish?"

Ali replied, "Jangan tension, I very clever, I do what you tell me and mark the area."

"So what did you do?" asked Ahmad.

"I very clever I tell you, I painted an X under the boat at the spot where got many fish!" replied Ali.

Ahmad looked at his friend for a very long time and finally gave him a deserving smack on the head while shouting, "You stupid kotek (cock)!!!!!! What if we get a different boat today?!!"

Tripflare

2004-09-26T22:35:00.000-07:00

whoops..
saturday was a rush.did e written report blah blah..den went to amk library to study..i think. lolz...kfc was fun. there was a baby chair specially for you..remember? ;p great fun.
sunday was fun..had a little time to play footie with my sec school mates..as usual,had fun, got whacked square in the chest n head..the infamous toe reared its head again...
2 weeks to promos..whoa..
tc ya'll

FLIR - Forward Looking Infra Red

2004-09-24T20:37:00.000-07:00

here's a couple of mat and minah jokes that me and my friends had a kick listenin to it..

How do you confuse a mat?
Place him an a circle room and ask him to ROC ! (relak one corner)

What do you call a mat that goes bunjee jumping?
Mat yoyo

How do you confuse hudah?
Place a watermelon next to her helmet!

How do you confuse jun and shaheera?
Get them to wet their hair place them beside Miss Gan.

hahah...
tc ya'll

Blue on Blue

2004-09-23T19:53:00.000-07:00

i'm setting records this month..sick too many times.. gahz..

wait...maybe there's a reason..written report is a pain in the butt...

sometin to say, if ur readin this, u belong to a couple of diff categories-
1.you are in my inner circle of friends and i tell u that.
2.we know each other well enuf to make me laugh.
3.we know each other.barely.
4.you know me but we dunt talk.
5.or you're simply a busybody who juz wanna snoop ard into my life.

does any of this ring a bell?
tc ya'll

Medical Orderly

2004-09-21T19:43:00.000-07:00

Parliament was a complete bore...but bus driver was rockin!he played on air westlife,birthday songs, the popeye theme song , westlife and best thing is, he said "you dun see me no up argh!" and duly played on air, TeCHNO songs! argh!...the horror!

fever now,throat bad and yeah...whole afternoon of projectwork-written work..gahz...

thanks to you for getting the book for me ya? => u'll have icecream,a bib and red bull waitin for ya this week...hahaha..
tc ya'll

W.I.A - Wounded In Action

2004-09-20T22:18:00.000-07:00

Headache..
Banged up knee..
Screwed neck..
Bad throat..
On set of fever?..maybe
Parliament house?..gawd

tmw go to e beach ehz?..lucky you..deserve it

Flight of the Angel...

2004-09-19T22:45:00.000-07:00

i offer my condolences to my teacher, mdm siti for e loss of her beloved son..

i offer him my prayers ..

LAW - Light Automatic Weapon

2004-09-19T19:37:00.000-07:00

hey..
its a funny thing. think abt it. most gals think that guys aint sensative enuf for them. if they're, they're either regarded at a SNAG, or a "too sensative"a guy.WTF. most of the times i follow this credo - i'll Do wateva i want.

weekend was alright. supposed to study but found myself a good book whcih i took less than an hour to finish n i got a locallly written book for you that u sat still,readin it with nothin of an ounce of expression till she ws done. wait..yeah..suprise is an understatement. of all days, of all activities,of all times. saturday had to be it. and both of us were caught out cold and...dumb..heh.

i've never seen singaporean students being at their kiasu best. on sun,those guys n gals take the cake.b4 the library opened, they gathered outside the door. the moment it opened, they actualli ran and got themselves a seat.actually,some of them actualli assigned a person to run ahead while his or her stuff is being carried by the others. wearing a smug and pathetic face when they got themselves a seat,they sat down beaming with their herculean effort.hehz...

the weekend was spent fruitfully spent on educating you on...red bull...CROWS..among others.. puked out the first gulp of red bull..gahz..yeah..m&ms fallin in in the library. did study in the end..so ya..

and yeah..hypothesis was proven.

somehow...

tc'ya'll

HAHO - High Altitude High Opening

2004-09-16T23:38:00.000-07:00

SMOOTH CRIMINAL

Alien Ant Farm

As he came into the window

Was a sound of a crescendo

He came into her apartment

He left the bloodstains on the carpet

She was sitting at the table

He could see she was unable

So she ran into the bedroom

She was struck down

It was her doom

Annie, are you OK

Are you OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

You OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

Will you tell us that you’re OK

There’s a sign at the window

That he struck you

A crescendo, Annie

He came into your apartment

He left the bloodstains on the carpet

Then you ran into the bedroom

You were struck down

It was your doom

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

You’ve been hit by

You’ve been struck by

A smooth criminal

So they came into the outway

It was Sunday

What a black day

I could feel your salutation

Sounding heartbeats

Intimidations

Annie, are you OK

Will you tell us that you’re OK

There’s a sign at the window

That he struck you

A crescendo, Annie

He came into your apartment

He left the bloodstains on the carpet

Then you ran into the bedroom

You were struck down

It was your doom

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

You’ve been hit by

You’ve been struck by

A smooth criminal

Annie, are you OK

Will you tell us that you’re OK

There’s a sign at the window

That he struck you

A crescendo, Annie

He came into your apartment

He left the bloodstains on the carpet

Then you ran into the bedroom

You were struck down

It was your doom

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

Annie, are you OK

You OK

Are you OK, Annie

5.56 mm ball round

2004-09-16T21:58:00.000-07:00

heya..

didnt go to skul on monz on weds..monday was a muscle ache day while on weds i had a bad pain..shant go into that..

pe was fun this week.had to play softball n badminton..haha..kinda sick f it but hell..who cares. i juz played.

finally somethin came right for our group for our project. apparently ours was the best so far..hehz..i spent the afternoon on skul last fri to hand it in on monz only to find out that it'll only be due on thurs..gahz..

runnin out of things to say ..bleargh..nothin much happened..of ya! singapore idol. yesterdays show was crap. i really dunno y sylvester got thru but i think the top 4 were beverly,maia,shirin and nana..thats bull boy..

you,better get ur sleep gurl..

tc ya'll

A10 Thunderbolt

2004-09-14T01:02:00.000-07:00

heya...
afta typing my last blog on friday, me,eka and jun senget went to toa payoh for some kfc..argh..nice place.we talked a lot on a whole range of stuff. *winkZ*..k..went on home on a super long bus with a 2 china foreign workers who obviously didnt know wat e hell is e meaning of NOT LEANING ON ME !! crap..
next day, had a one day softball tournament in montfort sec school with my old a new softball people. fun time. its great to see e junior players doin very well in their game. i sucked at fielding and batting on sat. i made lots of mistakes and didnt hit a good game.its either i'm rusty or juz forgot all my basic do's and dont's in e first game.we lost by one run. but the second game was better. b4 dat, i took part a a short 2 inning fastpitch softball game. i played catcher. scary boy. the pitching was very very very fast.woah..my fingers stings from the pain of the balls hittin my glove. gahz~ btw, we won the second game by like 6 runs..i had a good game. played catcher and did an ok job..the other players were solid in their game. i finally got my batting down and hit a couple of good solid grounders that pretty much stunned the opponents cuz of the speed and power of the balls goin past them, =>>

the bbq afta that was great. played footie in the skul parade square bare foot.haha..lost to the juniors but hell..it was fun plaing with them. bbq was ok..ate lots of otah otah..haha.. went on to tellin ghost stories till e end..hehehz..

did u know that a catcher's position requires to squat,kneel,use ur body to block the balls and fast sliding runners heading for ya?this excludes fast and accurate throwing to anywhere in the infield.guess what? yah..it takes balls to play and its not even my normal posintion.i wore everything but the invaluable,groin guard for my family jewels...blehddy risk.sunday morning, my thighs were burnin and my abs were hurting whenever i laughed. #crap# these were the muscles that ya use a lot as a catcher. but e worst was the thighs...urgh..goin to the library was a drag...has to somehow walk to amk library to study.went home, took a nap n planned to meet my best fren to pass her her prezzie but hey, guess wat, the pain got worse. urgh...

monday..didnt go to skul..thighs were still aching..couldnt possibly walk anywhere far.friends and alias was dang interesting..and haha..i'm still figurin how you miss, will somehow make me go immobile..hmmm...hahah. today was fun..nothin much tho...hmmm..

anyway..exams round the corner...damn...
tc ya'll

today is

K-pot Fritz Helmet

2004-09-10T02:20:00.000-07:00

hey...tired.jus finished the written report..finally..gahz..went to little india with "miss JUNAiNI gan" and leanna..yesterday..makan at this bluey bluey place..dunno what its called

i really dunno y some totally not-close-to-me-people are so interested in my life.ha...esp my lovelife.whats the big deal anyway.

s'pore idol was good..i think it had e best bunch of singers eva for the competition..wait, ncis? was even better on CH i.

i got pulled in to play in the one day inaugural softball tournament this sat.afta which there'll be a bbq.was kinda not lookin ahead to it cuz my boots r outta comission..but my junior came all e way to my house to look me up. felt bad and had to commit myself to it.besides, lots of people gonna be there and i'm looking forward to hitting a couple of homeruns for the team.

you. i so wanna kick ya ;p !kiddin! ...haha..

wait..i feel a migraine cummin..gawd.. BATTER UP!!
tc'yall

Primus

2004-09-07T19:21:00.000-07:00

heya..
ended yesterday with a massively solid headache which painkillers aint killin..gahz..but yesterday was fun in the afternoon.
went to camp to return my uniform which i simply didnt have the time for..then went to dhoby ghaut to meet u. i'm still sorry for the mess up yah? =/
yeah..went on to take five diff buses to get to 5 diff destinations..haha..fun.hey, the thing about acting as if a leader is in the know was good eh? got ya fooled there! wahaha.wait..i think both of us was new to that interchange in the most ulu-est part of s'pore i've ever known..;p i was a tour guide yesterday right..
things was fun yesterday..laughed a lot..played alot..was supervising someone who had a ball of a time at ikea..wait..a stool n a chair..know the diff now? hehehz..it fun hangin out with ya =>...n mirrors dun crack k!
dang ...i'm hungry now..

gtg..tc

Centurion Tank

2004-09-06T01:30:00.000-07:00

Control

Puddle of Mudd

I love the way you look at me

I feel the pain you place inside

you lock me up inside your dirty cage

well I'm alone inside my mind

I'd like to teach you all the rules

I'd get to see them set in stone

I like it when you chain me to the bed

but then your secrets never shone

[Chorus]

I need to feel you

You need to feel me

I can't control you

You're not the one for me,

no,I can't control you

You can't control meI need to feel you

so why's there even you and me?

I love the way you rake my skin

I feel the hate you place inside

I need to get your voice out of my head

Cause I'm that guy you'll never find

I think you know all of the rules

there's no expressions on your face

I'm hope that some day you will let me go

Release me from my dirty cage

[Chorus]

I need to feel you

You need to feel me

I can't control you

You're not the one for me,

no,I can't control you

You can't control meI need to feel you

So why's there even you and me?

[Repeat 4x]I love the way you look at me

I love the way you smack my ass

I love the dirty things you doI have control of you

[Chorus]

i need to feel you

You need to feel me

I can't control you

You're not the one for me,

noI can't control you

You can't control me

I need to feel you

So why's there even you and me.....

[Repeat 4x]You're not the one for me, no

Pellets

2004-09-06T01:23:00.000-07:00

"Nothing can hurt YOU unless YOU give it the power to do so"

Matador

2004-09-05T18:01:00.000-07:00

halla halla halla..
where do i start..ooya,,army open house.
it was one of the best army open house's that i've ever been to.i went with arif and his best buddy jufri. tried the simulations for the SPIKE anti tank missile, tried machine guns,gpmg,went inside tanks,travelled in the Bronco,saw the RED LIONS parachute down onto the parade square despite the blardy windy conditions..saw how animal traps were done n executed, handled shotguns, m16 plus the m203 grenade launcher,handled handguns,various versions of the m-16 .

the best of all-handling and firing paint catridges of the HK MP5-a at the Special Operation Force Paintball arena! i was lokin forward to doin that for a long time now! hahah!!! the one hour standing wait was damn worth it!! haha!! handling it was easier than i thot! i had to run,jump,kneel and crawl and prone. apparently if i did it all n not fire on the wrong target i'd get this exclusive poster i think i got pretty close to that. i think i impressed the SOF fella. i shot it all in like within record time i think. but i shot a child "hostage"! gahz..if not i'll get two posters! crap! but hey, i was darn happy n got an adrenalin rush. the weapon had little recoil juz like what the books said. i shot all target squarely in the head and i did the famed "double-tap" on my last target! hahaha..so cool!

then i tried the various games that was offered and hell, i went straight for it...then i met up with fad who juz HAD to be in her skul u with liping and sham..haha..then on a dare,all of breathed in helium to try the macy gray effect..wahaha..never sounded to funny in my entire life!..fad..like i said..u and balloons cannot squeeze thru the bus..haha got stuck yeah?

anyway, it was a great day.last minute stuff do happen with a bang sometimes dude. ..anyway, thank for the company fad,juf,arif,liping and sham.

tc ya'll

PHOENIX AGM - Air to Ground Missile

2004-09-02T22:45:00.000-07:00

heya..
lost the basketball semis yesterday.crap.was still at 2 points each until i sprained my big toe and the goals started flooding in. 2-6. crap. but for 3rd n 4th playoff, we came from behind to clinh the 3rd place. yeah baby...dear rajiv scored all 3 points! whoops! great team effort from all. rajiv,carol,pavi,suf,dayana. good stuff.the toe still hurts. apparently,some psychological thingy was tried on me...but didnt really noe it till today. shall touch on it later....hahah

kk...hmm..its was kinda fun to see e effort put in by the classes. i wanna thank rick,matthew,phillip,sean,robert lin mingda,nan,taufiq,suf,rajiv,maz,andrew who helped me out. thanks a lot guys.

wait, apparently, i had a fantastic supporter who gave me very vocal and contructive supprt during the games yest. haha.wait...i didnt think i noticed till someone told me..hahz...i think its called focus my dear...
i'm pretty much happy with myself..wait, i dun wanna stoop that low for an ego boost...hmm...lets all put our heads together n figure that out.wait..think harder..think

kk. gonna go to army open house tmw.whole day of jaw dropping displays.gpmg! here i come!. oohyeah..
tc'yall

AMRAAM- Advanced Medium Range Anti Aircraft Missile

2004-09-01T19:00:00.000-07:00

hey hey..
first i wanna give a huge thanks to all that made my birthday a happenin one aight. thanks guys. i really appreciate it. thanks to the guys and gals for the windbreaker,thanks fad for the movie treat,thanks amai for the wallet,thanks sarah for the tee shirt plus the 4 cornettos,thanks zul n shafiee for the letters..thanks ya'all.

been a while since i last blogged.

on sun i spent 3 hours coming up with a 2.500 word report juz to see it magically gone on hudah's laptop afta a movie..gahz..screw Sod's Law!freak..but hey, e movie was fun and i sent fad home afta that..

Teacher's day celebrations was full of unavoidable cock ups that i actualli enjoyed it.i think e SC should be proud of the way ya'all didnt go into chaos n instead functioned smoothly. being the emcee was fun..i talked way too much coz i needed to make small talk or make lame jokes. hey..its cool. anyone who wanna diss me off about the emcee gig should have juz volunteered to take over me.i'll see how u fare...hahahz ..gahz...e skit was horribel..hez..wadya expect,we had no time to prepare.shark,u did great job at emceeing too. =>

was browsing thru a recent issue of FHM yest and kinda got pleasantly suprised. haha..i saw one of my ex gf who's a chinese gettin featured.. hehe..heartland honey..she got standard la...i think she cant make it..good luck may.

these days, some ppl seem to be asking me or sum other ppl why i'm not attached and that kinda thing. hey, i dun feel like it.cool with ya? but hey, i think i'm getting along fine with life now...see how it goes.

was thinking, i spent a couple of entries talking bout someone. lookin back, its silly stuff.hehz..

tc ya'll

Daisy Cutter

2004-08-27T19:21:00.000-07:00

Outkast-The Way You Move

Boom, boom, boom
Heh, heh
Big Boi:Ready for action, nip it in the butt
We never relaxin', Outkast is everlastin'
Not clashin', not at all but see my n***a went to do a little acting
Now that's for anyone askin'
give me one pass 'em
Drip drip drop there goes an eargasm
Now you cumin' out the side of your face
We tapping right into your memory banks (Thanks!)
So flickle the tickle let's see your seat belt fastened
Trunk rattlin' like two midgets in the back seat wrasling
Speakerbox vibrate the tank, make it sound like aluminum cans in the back
But I know y'all wanted the 808 can you feel that B-A-S-S, bass
But I know y'all wanted the 808 can you feel that B-A-S-S, bass

I like the waaaay you move
I like the waaaay you move (Whoo-o-o!)
I love the waaaay you move
I love the way, I love the way
I love the waaaay you move
I love the waaaay you move (Whoo-o-o!)
I love the waaaay you moveI love the way,

I love the wayBig Boi:Then the whole room fell silent (Shhhhh!)
The girls all pause with glee, turning left turning right hardly looking at me
But I was looking at them, there, there on the dance floor
Now they got me in the middle feeling like a man wh***
Specially the big gurl, big gurls need love too no discrimination
So keep your hands off my cheeks, and let me study how you ride the beat
You big freak!Skinny, slim women got the ghetto within them
You can f*** them, lift them, bend them, give them something to remember
Hail out timber when you fall through the chop shop
Take a deep breath and exhale your ex male friend, boyfriend was boring as hell
Now let me listen to the stories you tell and we can make moves like a person in jail
On the loco

I like the waaaay you move
I like the waaaay you move (Whoo-o-o!)
I love the waaaay you move
I love the way, I love the way
I love the waaaay you move
I love the waaaay you move (Whoo-o-o!)
I love the waaaay you moveI love the way,
I love the way

Sleepy Brown Heeeey baby, girl don't you stop
Come on baby dance on the top of me
You so fine (you so fine) you so fine
You drive me outta my mind (my mind, outta my mind!)

OoohIf I could I would, just be with yooou baaaaby
Ooooooooh Cause you like me and excite me and you know you gotta leave baby!!
Oooooo!I like the waaay you move (I like the way you move)I like the waaay you move
(Ooo you so sexy baaby!) (Whoo-o-o!)I love the waaay you moveI love the way,

I love the way (Whoo-o-o!)I love the waaay you move (I like the way you move)
I love the waay you move (Ooo you so sexy baaby!) (Whoo-o-o!)I love the waaay you move
I love the way, I love the wayI like the waaay you move
I like the waaay you move (Whoo-o-o!)I love the waaay you move
I love the way, I love the wayI love the waaay you moveI
love the waaay you move (Whoo-o-o!)I love the waaay you move
I love the way,I love the way

Curveball..

2004-08-27T18:55:00.000-07:00

aight..i made the mornin trip to skul juz to do written report..argh..
wait...lets see what happened yestday..
afta leavng skul i had the chance to film huda and huimin trying to work magic on the back gate..hahaha..nice one suf. then..went to compasspoint for dinner with amai.who gifted me with a addidas wallet!! hahah! thanks amai. went to bk to sit and talk and doin our normal topics..we met sarah, who gave me a red t-shirt. solid!..then she also passed me letter from herself and zulaiha n shafiee. thanks guys. and ya, had to share 4 cornettos that was melting furiously.

afta all that..went home..slept..and woke up outta e blue, to remember to take out my contact that was beginnin to not detach itself for my eyes! urgh..

then...went back to sleep...hahaha! bliss..

thanks to everione to wished me good yesterday and for the prezzies too. the thought counts.

tc'yall

JDAM - Joint Direct Attack Ammunition

2004-08-27T01:11:00.000-07:00

woo hoo!!
i got a nike windbreaker..plus a whole bunch of toys
1. a toy gun
2. a toy binoculars
3. a toy car
4. a set of boot polish

wait..i also had my nipples pinced at e gate...got ambushed by the guys..
sprayed with water duing class..wait..and more..argh~

now, gotta meet amai n rendevous with sarh too.. see ya'll!

ahem!

2004-08-26T18:18:00.000-07:00

my day...now running away from my classmates who is chasing me to sabo me..my retribution for saboing them..regardless wheher its their birthday or not! hahaha!

first, i wanna thank the members of amai,ELKS,matt,jun,shark,my class,maria,win,zulaiha and others who made my day today..haha. and its only like..0919 hrs?..gah..more running to do.

gonna have lunch later..meeting amai for dinner and gonna rendevous with sarah a bit later..boi..long day ! haa!

anyway, yesterday's basketball tourney was great.y team played 2 group games, and won them both,puttin us the the top of the table with a perfect record.also played 2/3 of a semi final.thats stuck 2 points a piece. kudos to the team for puttin up a splendid effort.never say die man! me? i sprained my big toe while playing cricket b4 that...argh. without the shoes, i'm hobblin!

right..i'm gonna grab a bite now.. tc' ya'll.

NSDQ Night Stalkers Don't Quit 160th SOAR

2004-08-25T18:23:00.000-07:00

Seven Nation Army

Im gonna fight em off

A seven nation army couldnt hold me back

Theyre gonna rip it off

Taking their time right behind my back

And Im talking to myself at night

Because I cant forgetBack and forth through my mindBehind a cigarette

And the message coming from my eyes Says leave it alone

Dont want to hear about it

Every single ones got a story to tell

Everyone knows about it

From the Queen of England to the hounds of hel

lAnd if I catch it coming back my way

Im gonna serve it to you

And that aint what you want to hear,

But thats what Ill doAnd the feeling coming from my bones

Says find a homeIm going to Wichita

Far from this opera for evermore

Im gonna work the straw

Make the sweat drip out of every pore

And Im bleeding, and Im bleeding, and Im bleedingRight before the lord

All the words are gonna bleed from me and I will thinkNo more

And the stains coming from my blood

Tell me go back home

wham bam

2004-08-25T17:41:00.000-07:00

now i've got 2 hrs n 15 mins of pure slacking time.
slept onlt at two...caffeine kicked into overdrive late last night..

MURPHY'S LAW or better known as Sod's Law...
...was in a car whose air con zonked out,was in a storm, and found out that all that,plus an oily windscreen and the scientific phenomenom called condensation could do to make travelling a whole lot exciting by gettin an adrenalin rush along a slopy,windy and wet road.

todae is the basket ball challenge round 3.gotta win the other game to get thru to semis.
crap. tall people play basketball? not me.

wish me luck,wish rajiv,suhuf,carol pavi,and dayana too. time to kick ass!

2004-08-25T04:11:00.000-07:00

Chumbawamba
Tubthumping

We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing
I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away

He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times:

"Oh Danny BoyDanny BoyDanny Boy..."

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away

He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him Of the better times:
"Don't cry for meNext door neighbour..."

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing

urgh!

2004-08-25T03:59:00.000-07:00

today was a fantastic day.
econs teacher didnt come.yay!
btw,well done miss intan,ya passed ya maths. =>

but morphed out to be a baaaad day.
1. found out i've to complete the 2500 word written report by monz,which means my weekend is burnt.birthday burnt somewat too.
2. have to settle the teacher's day video which i have been procastinating.
3.kept falling asleep during e one hr management lecture.nv felt this comfy n sleepy during lectures before.
4.i'm broke.

it pains me to see anyone i care for suffer.
i wish i'm e e one instead.
really.

my birthday wish still stays.
for my mum to recover.
please.

2 more days..

2004-08-24T18:54:00.000-07:00

things to say
things to do,
wat to do
if ya aint got the will to do

things to feel,
things to touch
what can i do,
if ya dont feel the way i do.

things to care
things to love
wat would you do
if i wont make the leap across.

heya

2004-08-24T00:29:00.000-07:00

first i wanna say a big CONGRATULATIONS to my coursemate,platoonmate and friend national silat pugilist, Shaiful Ramli for winning a silver medal in the Pencak Silat Open Championship. well done dude.

i like this song - a lot.

Uncle Cracker
Follow Me

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why
You can't turn around and say goodbye
All you know is when I'm with you, I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singin

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

I'm not worried bout the ring you wear
Cause as long as I know one knows than nobody can care
You're feelin guilty and I'm well aware
But you dont look ashamed and baby I don't care
I'm singin

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
Your better off if you don't ask why
I'm not the reason that you go astray
And we'll be alright if you don't ask me stay

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why
You can't turn around and say goodbye
All you know is when I'm with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singin

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
I'm singing

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
I'm singin

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

The Hentak Kaki Song - THE SONG

2004-08-24T00:06:00.000-07:00

WE come from a company
famous in the NCC
we come from a very special company!

We fight for our glory
we fight for our victory,
we fight for with a spirit never known before!

Montfort,Monfort!
all the way!
We like it here
we like it here
We found ourselves a home
A home,a home
A home sweet home!

1st Intake
Montfort Ncc
1997

well...

2004-08-23T18:21:00.000-07:00

this is kinda like so a long tyum ago but lookin at this kinda make me smile again and again..so ya..thanks lana!
As usual we had performances by various classes and 03B1 RAWKED! BIG TYM!
I thought their whole item - de skit/movie tingy was radsome. Especially the movie.
I gotta say, to those that edited/acted the whole movie tingy did a phuckin' phantastic helluva job.
The plot itself was funny, yet capturing the gist of the whole world war two. Phuckin' awesome. I dare say the best performance I've watched in all my life of watching school performances right from kindergarten till now.
Awesome.
And oh, kudos to RAJIV for that hilarious yet convincing beheading scene.
Oh what the hell.all de actors, the cast and all those involved in the movie making RAWKED.

little things

2004-08-22T23:16:00.000-07:00

its the little things that matter.
i kept dozing off during 1 1/2 hrs of management lecture..i woke up..and i suddenly thought of the things i thought i should feel and how i should be treated by some people in my life. i thought all these people were unfair to me.

as i'm blogging, i realised that i shdnt feel bad or get jealous of anyone.hey, i had a ball of a time these year. hehz..

i'll suck up whateva is thrown at me, i'll stand firm .cuz i know, i can dish out shit to anyone who does the same.ut hey..lets not sink to THAT depths ya?..

2004-08-22T19:51:00.000-07:00

Maroon 5
This Love
Songs About Jane

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips Into every inch of youCause
I know that's what you want me to do

this song appealed to me somewhat..i noe y,but i dun wana admit it..somehow, shit happens..

thank you

2004-08-22T19:31:00.000-07:00

kudos to our olympians.
kudos to all those who served the nation.
kudos who risk their live for us.
kudos to all who lost their lives to e nation.
thank you.

juz a word to tat gal who is contemplating over the course.the course is sucky,the course is a drag,but the course is challenging and the course is a hell of a thing to do.
what you decide to do,in wat mindset, that sets the tone for it.

my birthday is comin.somehow, i feel that the joy n excitement seems to be sucked out.i dun want any presents,i dont want anything. i juz want my mum to get well again. please.

i dun wanna say much cuz somehow,these days,actions cant seem to translate to words.

2004-08-20T20:57:00.000-07:00

Your Body is a Wonderland
we've got the afternoon
you've got this room for two
one thing I've left to do
discover me discovering you

one mile to every inch ofyour skin like porcelain
one pair of candy lips and your bubblegum tongue
cause if you want love we'll make it
swim in a deep sea of blanket
stake all your big plans and break 'em
this is bound to be awhile

your body is a wonderland
your body is a wonderland
I'll use my hands
your body is a wonderland

something about the way the hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillow case
you tell me where to go though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it
if you want love we'll make it
swim in a deep sea of blanket
stake all your big plans and break 'em
this is bound to be awhile

Your body is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
damn, baby you frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
but you look so good it hurts sometimes

your body is a wonderland
your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
your body is a wonderland

now then..

2004-08-20T18:35:00.000-07:00

hey fadz, i think i came up with the "spec course Phase One! Hooyah!" cheer...haha..smart ah?now having a 30 min break b4 gp lecture starts..cant wait for it to end.. but hey, the highlight of the day is still Li Jiawei's match later..boy, cant wait.

tis year, a fren told me off bout how i treat people ard me. she didnt want me to continue that way cuz she noes how terrible things get if i get rubbed the wrong way. i considered changing but realised, that this is who i am.still, she gave very good support during those times.. thanks sarah "maria" banu. lolz..

i gotta get over the state of mind i'm in this week. i can afford to let things mess my focus n my mind. especially things that aint in my hands.

i had a nice time this morning.had breakfast the aamus n hot tea. the morning sun was great, reminded me of the mornings when i was in camp and had to conduct m-16S1 rifle technical handling tests..serene stuff.

anyone know the phrase "cruel and unusual punishment"? haha...=>

fadz again, do ya noe ur fren said abt ya was apt. "Natural but not normal." hahah...told ya...

"3 balls n 2 Strikes.2 outs,bases loaded and bottom of the ninth" i like this situation that only occurs in baseball and softball. things are on the knife's edge.the game lies in the next pitch or hit.i like to steal bases. its the best thrill ever. to those who cant comprehend what i'm blabbering about, take ur time...hahah..

tc ya'll.
t minus 5 days to D'day..the airborne assault has begun

noe wat...

2004-08-19T22:06:00.000-07:00

"Spec Course Phase One HOOYAH!"
I juz remembered bout this cheer i made my course did.this was like in june last year and i was the 2nd in charge of this Ncc camp called the Specialist Course.there was like 320 ++ 15 yr olds,20++ of my clt colleagues. n i was was in charge of them. was wonderin how did i manage to cope with the pressure of running the course, the food, cadet welfare, and yeah, how to handle deflated egos,and overblown ones...and yeah,cadet morale. having a fantastic support crew helps.they did 90% of wats needed in the course.all i did was to push them to meet deadlines,maintain discipline and see that everything goes smoothly and handle and cock-ups.again i thank those who helped me out..the logistics,the admin n the traing peepz.

i'd rather handle this over handling people from my age group sometimes..things just wont go smooth.june dis year, i was the platoon commander of 40 cadets n had a assistant platoon commander as my understudy. it was a blast. cadets were great n my assistant was very capable.kinda worth the effort to be part of it.plus, i had the chance to show off my M-16 rifle stripping skills again. hahaz! 18 sec!!! woohoo!!!

i like being in ncc camps and taking leadership commands but in skul, i'd rather follow than lead. sick of leading sometimes.ya noe, it helps having great colleagues too...a lot of jokes and fun we had..like playin CS in the middle of the night n waking up real groggy at 7 when ya juz got into bed at 3. lolz...fun.

hahz...gotta do my written report now..sick. cathch ya'll later. ciao

Faint

2004-08-19T20:23:00.000-07:00

07. Faint 02:42
I am
Little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
But I can't help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it's like
No matter what I do
I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that i'm not
But i'll be here
'Cause you're all I got

I am
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
I am
What you never want to say
But i've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that i'm not
But i'll be here
'Cause you're all I got

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

No
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now

Decide

2004-08-19T18:22:00.000-07:00

heya..yesterday was a shitty day. I'm enjoying accounts nowadaes, getting the hang of things. but some crap came up during the lecture that caused me to get distracted the whole blehdy day. i can zone out my problems to focus but somehow, i didnt wanna yesterday. Pw is getting crappy...written report is beginning to pull me down but good thing is, gpp is finally over. thanks my Mi005 gang.

I wanna say sorry to jacqueline cuz yesterday, kinda collided into her n she hurt her ankle in the process...darned. wished i was the one hurt instead. feel really bad.sorry jacq. =<>

I've been on high for a while now. never felt better. but these week, it was sobering to know that i can be easily be brought down crashing if crap gets to me. Some of ya probably know whats dragging me down.

as the days go past, i realise that i'm indebted to a lot of people this year..amai,leanna,matt,jun,sri..for being there for me. thanks guys. i love ya'll.

to anyone who noe me well enuf,ya know that i'm not out to hurt people, i'm there if u need me and wen u want me to be.but everyone noes the groove about getting hurt n how painful it is.

I want to be happy.i can be happy when i want to,where i want to. right now, i juz wanna enjoy the days leading up to my birthday..6 more days.i think i deserve that.

you, i've faced shit n felt crap for months. i sucked it up. I've had enough.i dun wanna understand no more. i think i've had enough.i've followed my heart when my head were screaming at me to stop.i'm a riik taker,shit happens.. i can understand juz about anything and anybody but i feel, i'm at no fault. If things were to turn out nice, some things gotta change.Prove me wrong if you are willing but i dun have the guts to put my foot forward.

gtg now.tc ya'll.

"Understand others for them to understand you."

ahah!

2004-08-18T00:20:00.000-07:00

this blog is simply for me to practise my english cuz i've not been reading up a lot. kinda miss reading for hours.
hehz..i just heard e latest word bout me from the yr 1's. "Fadhil is hitting on year 1 gurls." wat the! haha..i'd guess e mindsets of some of them is way diff from us. big joke. not that i bother to rectify their opinion of me. just to let tme know, there's there's a huge diff in being friendly and "hitting". please! wats with the emo n "feeling"? perasaan sey! *GuFFawS* being all smiley and friendly do not equal to hitting on anyone. where did u guys learn to rationale? do i need to hit on anyone? no. duhz. i'm not desperate for attention.i dont hear that frm the yr 2 n 3.like everyone else, if u want it, u can have it.same for me. please. hehz.no biggy,i dun really bother bout them much.those who knoe me, know who i really am. gtg now..wanna hv my lunch n do some serious mugging. take care ya'all.

hey

2004-08-17T19:56:00.000-07:00

hey..i'm a newbie at this..kinda getting myself stuck in to have a feel..but hey..who cares? something for ya to think about, if someone whom ya really loved,cared a lot for, lost sleep for,worried for thot alot about hurt ya, again and again and again, and never really knew why or how or when it all went wrong btwn u and that person, suddenly wants to salvage somethin, would ya play ur part?

I take e effort to help and understand those closest to me..amai,leanna,soffie,jun among others..and they reciprocate. I love them.Things might have gone wrong before but we settled them.But they do not hurt me as much as you do.But still, i somehow have this softspot for you that everyone thinks i shouldnt even harbour b'cuz of the hurt and pain i went thru.To think about it makes me feel like a fool.really.I can be a nice guy,smiley guy when i want to, but feeling hurt is something i really dun want.I may make the first move but, i'm sticking to my guns. i wont make the first move. I'm stubborn when i want to be. That is who i am. Fadhil. Ur either with me cuz you and i choose to understand, or against me. For bloody obvious reasons.Hurting peoples's feeling and messing with them is not my thing,(ncc wise...well..thats my forte) and i cant forgive myself sometimes if i do it.But getting hurt so much, is sometimes too much too bear.For those who know, The ncc camp i had in june...well..ya guys know the story..

Look thru me or look at me.I do not know and i dont care.Hurt me and i noe that.Be sarcastic to me? see whether i'll notice.Chances are, the phrase "I dont give a bloody fark." is beginning to hold new meaning to me. Like in every story,there's always an ending. But in this story,i'm not the storywriter,you are.In chess, its ,"Your move."

heya

2004-08-16T18:22:00.000-07:00

look..to i think blogging is kinda not my thing..but hey..juz wana take a shot at this.
its not that i've nuthin to say but its more like wat to say, haha. wat i do seems to be seen by others..like, hey, where's e privacy?..yest was a wacky day..dear mrs wee saboed me when she saw shahidah walking past..her reaction to the situation was to alert the class of shahidah's presence and that alone is enough to ignite the class to say out" FADDDDDHHHILLLL!!!!"..argh..was caught out of my element and blushed real bad...=P..wait,we'll hv Pe later n Fitness club..kinda looking forward to break a good sweat..wahaha..got in touch with her last nite..haha.fun.gtg for pe now..till then.